The Quiet You Carry by Nikki Barthelmess
Flux | March 5, 2019
Victoria Parker knew her dad’s behavior toward her was a little unusual, but she convinced herself everything was fine—until she found herself locked out of the house at 3:00 a.m., surrounded by flashing police lights.
Now, dumped into a crowded, chaotic foster home, Victoria has to tiptoe around her domineering foster mother, get through senior year at a new school, and somehow salvage her college dreams . . . all while keeping her past hidden.
But some secrets won’t stay buried—especially when unwanted memories make Victoria freeze up at random moments and nightmares disrupt her sleep. Even worse, she can’t stop worrying about her stepsister Sarah, left behind with her father. All she wants is to move forward, but how do you focus on the future when the past won’t leave you alone?
*Trigger Warnings: Sexual abuse, physical abuse, suicide and self-harm mention*
I knew there was something weird about this book when I first saw it, but I can honestly say I had no idea this book would be about sexual abuse. I don’t know if I would have requested it had I know what it was about. Saying all of that, it wasn’t a bad book, it just covers several unsettling topics.
First things first, I didn’t give this book three stars because of the difficult things that take place throughout the story. Things like what happened in the book, happen every day, and they’re horrible no matter the circumstance. This was a good book, the way the main character, Victoria, changes throughout the story is very real and easy to relate to. The author did a wonderful job of explaining the way Victoria was feeling and how confused she was throughout the book that made it easier for those of us who have never gone through something like this.
There were lots of great characters in this book as well. With Victoria being the oldest at their foster mother Connie’s house she feels a little responsible for the younger kids. Jamie is the one who opens Victoria’s eyes and makes her realize that she needs to take care of her sister Sarah. Christina and Kale love Victoria despite her hiding the fact that she was in foster care. I think Christina was my favorite character though. She always stood up for Victoria and kept her out of trouble because Victoria could not afford to get into trouble. That’s how true friends are supposed to be and that’s why she was my favorite.
Thank you NetGalley and Flux for an advanced copy of this book in return for an honest review.